It's been a long, long time....

...and a lot has happened. I devoted much of my life and nearly all of my free time to two very special people, and as of this present writing they are both completely gone from my life — the first by my choice, incomprehensible to her; the second by her choice, stunning me but not leaving me entirely without hope.

And during this period of time I've devoted almost nothing of my life and next to no time to the one most important Person of all.

During my last conversation with the second friend, I lamented, "Everything, everything I've fought and worked and prayed for the hardest, I have lost." She responded, "Maybe you're working for the wrong thing."

Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.

Only when I can truly let everything else go and rest completely and solely in Him can I be truly satisfied. And only then can I hope to have restored what I've lost.

All the things I took from thee, I did but take
Not for thy harms,
But just that thou mights seek it in My arms.
All which thy child's mistake fancies as lost,
I have stored for thee at home:
Rise, clasp my hand,
And come!

Wait for me, my Lamb. When the lion within is subdued, I'll be a true Lion, strong and free to protect and love you as I ought.

God keep us both.